Monday, October 22, 2007
the side of the bed where your teeshirt lies.
So i guess today is the day. 22nd oct - the start of semester 2.2. & bloody hell my timetable is so fucking screwed. I end at 5 or 6 every single day! Not only that, i have 7 modules to take. Practically like taking O levels without malay. I cant imagine the stress i'll be in when it's nearing the weeks of project DEADlines.
3 weeks have passed and yet im nowhere near closure. It's so hard to get by without him in my life. Though he can be such an annoyance, his presence played such a big influence in my life. Now, it feels as if i've lost my closest friend. & i know being emo about it doesn't help. It's so hard to let go. Afterall we've been together for 15months. But hey when it's all said & done, it's better to leave it that way.
*nights are cold without his flame.
*his vs shirt will be on my left every night.
*nights are becoming so lonely.
*all i've been doing is cry.
*it's so hard to pretend im okay.
*my thoughts get messed up.
*im trying to run away but i know that's not gonna help.
*im missing him bad, i never sleep.
*i hope you're doing fine out there without me, cause im doing so good without you.
*it does not help that mother keep mentioning "boyfriend"
*im sorry i couldn't be the one you wanted me to be .
*im tired of waiting for you to figure out where i fit in.
*maybe i should have started running long time ago - then it wouldn't hurt this much.
*i feel sick in the stomach
*i hate heartburn!
*even chocolate doesn't taste as good anymore
*going on with you gone still upsets me
*you've taken everything
*it's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
*this state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating. anticipating, all the fucked up feelings again.
*boy, you've got me suicidal.
*i wished i had lied, just to keep you here.
*You took a hammer to these walls, dragged the memories down the hall
*i've lost my love story
*miss you like a child misses their blanket
*Yes you can hold my hand if u want to cause I want to hold yours too
*when you know it's gone - you've got to set it free.
I'll see you on the 11th june 2017 at 1106am.
somewhere only we know.
<13
3 weeks have passed and yet im nowhere near closure. It's so hard to get by without him in my life. Though he can be such an annoyance, his presence played such a big influence in my life. Now, it feels as if i've lost my closest friend. & i know being emo about it doesn't help. It's so hard to let go. Afterall we've been together for 15months. But hey when it's all said & done, it's better to leave it that way.
*nights are cold without his flame.
*his vs shirt will be on my left every night.
*nights are becoming so lonely.
*all i've been doing is cry.
*it's so hard to pretend im okay.
*my thoughts get messed up.
*im trying to run away but i know that's not gonna help.
*im missing him bad, i never sleep.
*i hope you're doing fine out there without me, cause im doing so good without you.
*it does not help that mother keep mentioning "boyfriend"
*im sorry i couldn't be the one you wanted me to be .
*im tired of waiting for you to figure out where i fit in.
*maybe i should have started running long time ago - then it wouldn't hurt this much.
*i feel sick in the stomach
*i hate heartburn!
*even chocolate doesn't taste as good anymore
*going on with you gone still upsets me
*you've taken everything
*it's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
*this state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating. anticipating, all the fucked up feelings again.
*boy, you've got me suicidal.
*i wished i had lied, just to keep you here.
*You took a hammer to these walls, dragged the memories down the hall
*i've lost my love story
*miss you like a child misses their blanket
*Yes you can hold my hand if u want to cause I want to hold yours too
*when you know it's gone - you've got to set it free.
I'll see you on the 11th june 2017 at 1106am.
somewhere only we know.
<13